Life is a bit demanding at the moment. Certain things feel like as if I'm running through a swimming pool and it doesn't feel like people truly take me for who I am, or what I accomplish on that terrain. This has nothng to do with the costuming hobby, but it is.... draining (I think that's the right word). Quite the opposit is true for the costuming hobby as I get alot of positive feedback... But then it is also demanding (and not even the costuming itself, primarily the social media behind it).
I decided to pull the plug to get back to myself. Center out my thoughts and focus on things that I must focus on.
Had a talk with my wife however. She said I should NEVER let go of any creative outlet, no matter what is "required" of me or my time at all. She said I would eventually starting to want create stuff anyways and I'll regret having pulled the plug. I suppose she is right. I am what I am and I do believe I am a creative person. Deviantart is a launch platform for that creativity.
However things are..... hectic here. Very hectic.
After a break from the digital traffic (seriously... sometimes I feel like I have a third job next to my real one as a teacher, and next to the studying and all...) I did feel.... more free. A pressure was definitly gone.
I had exams this week, and it went well I believe
That kind of boosted the self-esteem
I did decide to kill the RBF Facebook page (and my personal FB page) after all this, as I experienced pressure, backlash and other crap from it. DA does not have that. I nag alot about DA crashing (And I do believe that nagging is justified) but the people here are friendly, decent and.... awesome!
HOWEVER.... PLEASE understand if I won't be able to get back to all the messages on here anymore. I feel really bad about that, because I really apppreciate it if people come by to leave a message.... I just can't afford it at this point in time.
So... Sorry about all this BS, but if you kind of like it I is still here, then all credit goes to me wife
(I allready gave her a kiss)